Each month, Dialosophy will feature a “Insecure Girl of the Month”, also known as #IGM. This month, we shine a bright light on: Miss Jenna Washington.
Name Jenna (Rose-Marie) Washington
Hometown Evansville, IN
Favorite Quote Split between 1) “The right answer revealed at the wrong time can only ever be an untruth–or at the very best–a misconception.” and 2) “Great men are forged in fire. It is the privilege of lesser men to light the flame.” -John Hurt as “The War Doctor”
What does insecurity mean to you? What are you insecure about? How can you learn to embrace your insecurities?
To me, it’s taking all the negativity that other people give and turning it on yourself by finding faults–that may or may not exist–and magnifying them until you’re paralyzed and you doubt yourself. I’ve been–and still am–insecure about my body, my ability to connect and emote, and my academic ability. To embrace my insecurities, I have to actively work on them. I start off by acknowledging them and their origin because denial gets you stuck in a fruitless mindset. Then I make a plan starting with what I need to cut out in my life (people, media, etc.) and what I need to add (daily affirmations, prayer, etc.). I talk to like-minded people close to me who care and can help and keep myself accountable. And, when push comes to shove, I get counseling. There’s no shame in needing professional help. Therapy is a thing for a reason. And speaking of Insecure…everyone on that show needs serious therapy
What does love mean to you? How do you show this emotion and other actions to yourself?
Love–it’s acceptance and a willingness to grow and become better as a group. I’m never good at contacting people so I’m not good at showing my love but I’ll think about and pray for my loved ones. I’ll try to call or text or Snap every once in a blue moon. I’ll tell stories of fun times to others. I’ll have an open ear for when they need/want to talk and a firm hand when they need direction that I can provide. I’ll chill with them, just hang out in the same room together while working on separate things.
What type of person are you? What do you love the most about yourself?
I’m still in the “Love and Belonging” tier of the “Self-Actualization Triangle” so I’m a WIP. But for now, I’m a black, female, procrastinating, bibliophilic, Applied Math Ph.D. student who loves to cook and eat, loves mystery, fantasy, and sci-fi, and hates peas. I love graphic tees, jeans, and busted tennis shoes. I have depression, anxiety, and Imposter Syndrome. I’m left-handed and wear glasses. I love the color green, though I don’t own many green things. And I have the chance of developing asthma and allergies, because I still have eczema as an adult! Yay! The thing I love most about me is that I haven’t given up on myself, nor this world… because shit is crazy and a lot of things are fucked up. Sorry if you don’t curse on your blog, but it’s true. And I’m so proud of me and all of us for being here, sticking through it, and working on making it better.
Where do you see yourself in one year?
I’ll be in the 3rd year of my Ph.D. program, the first year of candidacy where I’ve passed preliminary exams (qualifiers), researching and no longer taking classes (Thank, God!)! I’ll be living by myself as my two current roommates graduate with their Masters. I’ll be more organized, more settled in myself, and hopefully with this NSF fellowship! I’ll start investing and saving more so my parents can retire sooner. And I’ll be planning on a big trip, either to China or Japan (working on those language skills) or to France. And planning for trips to Africa and South America… two/three years away. I’ll be working on being happy and staying true to myself and God above all else.
If you are interested in becoming or know someone that’d you like to nominate for the next #IGM, please email firstname.lastname@example.org. Please send any photo of your choice that best captures you and answer the following questions:
- Favorite Quote
- What does insecurity mean to you? What are you insecure about? How can you learn to embrace your insecurities?
- What does love mean to you? How do you show this emotion and other actions to yourself?
- What type of person are you? What do you love the most about yourself?
- Where do you see yourself in one year?
Each young woman selected for #IGM will receive a $10 Amazon e-gift card at the end of the month.